Is that not the perfect picture?
Bonjour mes amies. Comment allez vous! Moi, ça va très bien. Il fait chaud aujourd’hui ici et je cours finalement dans au soleil. J’aime le soleil.
Je aussi aime dire les mots en français commes – tous les jours et finalement.
Le temps passe trop vite! L’annee derniere en France:
I see the new dots brightly flashing on the horizon. Each one enthusiastically waving “pick me, pick me.”
See previous post for more on these dots.
Mais, lequel choisir? Je ne sais pas!
Pour moi, pour la première fois, je suis arrêté et je sens les roses.
And it feels amazing! I’ve never paused like this and once this pause ceases I most likely won’t pause again for another 10 years.
Est-ce que beaucoup de stress? Un peu. Parce que je n’ai jamais arrêté comme ça avant.
Donc, j’écris. L’écriture m’aide à faire le tri dans ma tête.
It’s actually quite euphoric, this pausing, once you let go and just be. I’m excited for the future and what is yet to be. Today, I live each day fully, slowly and with intention.
Forming new mental muscles, routines and habits.
Le Tri –
As I often do when I read, write, study French I once again stumble amongst the words. This time it’s the French word le tri that holds my gaze. Le Tri, means to sort and I am suddenly reminded of my younger days as a army medic and the word triage. I google triage and le tri and am once again lost in time – lost in reading – lost in discovery.
I use the word lost here in a positive way. J’aime lire, mais – it is a time sucker.
Then I realize I am triaging my life right now. Sorting out what I want to keep and what I no longer need.
Determining what is most important – most vital.
Unconventional methods of learning French (writing) serve me best. A planned vacation to Quebec this summer (super, super excited) should provide some much needed conversational / verbal practice.
And then it will be time for me to un-pause – peut être…
Still holding out for that chance encounter and cool opportunity to travel and work abroad.
Until then, to the emerging dots I say, “I see you and I am sorting through you, be patient.” Smelling the roses, realigning priorities, and triaging.
Returning to my beloved running is also serving me well. After a long winter, I am finally feeling half way decent about running.
I’m a solid month behind in training, but am running with a new sense of peace.
Still struggling with my speed after a few years of long distance running and now finding myself forgoing events because I don’t want others to see this slow down.
C’est la vie! C’est la vie! C’est vrai! C’est ce que c’est et c’est fantastique – cette vie!
The first half-marathon of the season (for me) is in two weeks. I so want to be able to keep the pace under 9 minutes per mile. I’m afraid of this pace for 13.1 miles – so starting today, it’s all visualization “I can run 13.1 miles at a 9 minute per mile pace!”
Oui je peux! Avec du café!
Gauging my strength at the moment I would say that I am too slow for an age group award 5K, not quite strong enough for a half marathon distance under 2 hours, but feeling 10K ready (where you can better balance the speed with the distance). There is a 10K near by tomorrow, but I really need to run 12 to 13 miles so my body and my mind remembers what this particular distance feels like.
I’m also not ready for others to see me run. I’m learning to run like no one is looking – with peace in my breath and joy in my heart.
I’m learning…I have not yet learned this.
Does anyone else struggle with keeping up with old PRs (Personal Records)?
Au revoir pour maintenant mes amies.