Bonjour mes amis. Je suis seule mais…pas seule. Parce que nous sommes ensemble pour toujours dans notre cœurs.
Interesting take on some time alone:
The last two weeks saw me alone. Seul / seule – as my husband spent time in France with his Mother.
I had a list of things to do, but I managed to avoid all of them.
I realized that after 33 years together – I don’t do seul / seule very well.
Now, don’t get me wrong the first half of our lives together we spent many days, weeks, and months apart – once a whole year. But for the last 15 years we have been constant companions.
I knew it would be hard to be alone, but I was most surprised at how I really didn’t know where or how to start the day.
I’m sure that after a few more weeks on my own, I’d fall into a better routine. But, I seriously feel I wasted the last two weeks. I took a few days to visit my own mother, yet even there I found myself waiting for the next phone call.
As a couple we have fallen into a wonderful space. I do these things and he does those things. Together it all gets done. I call these things “pink and blue jobs.” Pink for girl jobs and blue for boy jobs.
Garbage is a blue job, coffee is a blue job. Laundry and grocery shopping are pink jobs. When I look at the division of “our” things, I realize just how traditional we might be labeled. I also realize there are more blue jobs.
The one thing I did do the last two weeks was think. I thought a lot and I really think I should make the coffee more often. A little humor stirs within me, because we both know that won’t happen. However, I now know how to make coffee. Will I tell anyone? Probably not.
Albeit traditional, it works for us. I missed us / nous. And I look forward to being us / nous again.
We can be “I’s” and still be “us”. So intertwined with love. You are the peace I sought. You are the sweet relax at the end of the day.
As long as we are always reaching for the “us” before the “I’s”, we will be fine.
Et finalement, How’s that French coming?
Last week, I had the opportunity to speak French. You would not believe how well I spoke. AND my accent was even complimented! VRAIMENT!
I now know for sure – immersion is the key to language learning.
I just ADORE the French language. Not sure where all of this will lead, but I so enjoy the process.
What do you see for you and me:
I see us in France.
I see us drinking the wine and tasting the sea.
Je vois toi et je vois moi. Je vois nous ensemble – juste toi et moi.